It has all gone a bit wrong!

So, last week I was supposed to update with my weight and measurements, but unfortunately things went a bit wrong!

I was diagnosed with stage 3 kidney disease in 2010 and I have recently not been feeling too well. I had some blood tests and the results were not what I expected them to be. You can read all about it in my other blog Scrapheap Human: Living with Chronic Kidney Disease but in short, because of my kidneys I am having to be careful how much I push it at the gym.

I am still going, although Friday was the first ever time I missed a session, but I was so exhausted both physically and emotionally. I have an appointment on Monday 29th April at a more specialist clinic so I will discuss what I can and cannot do at the gym. I will also be speaking with the trainers there and hopefully I will still be able to get a real good workout, without doing myself any damage!

I will be updating again soon.

Some shocking comparisons

Yesterday afternoon I had a teeny bit of a WOW! moment. I was uploading some side shot photos and noticed that the one taken in January my belly just looked so soft and floppy with no form or shape whatsoever! Then the one taken in March, my stomach looked smaller, but still, just a wobbly mess. Today I could see the start of something beginning to happen... it made me smile! I am definitely heading in the right direction.

I was so pleased seeing this small change. The first picture 23rd January, middle picture was taken on 7th March, the last picture was taken 29th March... 10 WEEKS! Oh, and 2 days :) 

I do not have many photos of me when I was bigger as I hated having my photo taken, but I have managed to find some that I can compare with new size now.

The first picture was taken in August 2007, as you can see I was not too happy with having my picture taken. The second photo was taken the beginning of March this year, much happier and healthier looking!!

In 2009 I had a breast reduction. When my Mum was 42 she had a breast reduction and during the operation the surgeon found a mass, it turned out to be cancer. My Mum was told she was lucky as the mass was so deep in her breast tissue, she probably would not have until it was too late. The fear of the same thing happening to me was unbearable and since my breasts grew even more after my second son I was so terrified. Luckily was able to get the reduction done! As you can see a MASSIVE difference!!!

This was my wedding day in April 2008 (8 weeks pregnant with my 2nd child)

The first picture was taken New Years Eve 2009 (7 months after my reduction). I was that size right up until about late 2012's when I started off cutting my portion size and began my journey to a healthier, fitter, happier me.

Looking back on these pictures, although I was smiling I was not comfortable with who I was. I tried kidding myself by saying "I am happy with my size, I have had two children, I am no longer a skinny teenager!" For ages I tried to convince myself I liked the way I looked. I did not want to be one of those people who moaned about their size, but did  nothing about it. Now I can see, I was not happy, I was in denial! 

I can now honestly say I am becoming HAPPIER with my body, I am becoming more confident in clothing and I am learning to walk tall! I still have some work to do, but if I am honest, it does not feel like work as I really enjoy it. My husband used to tell me to get a hobby, I think I have now found it!

Proud of myself

Did you all have a nice Easter weekend? How did you do with all that yummy chocolate?

I have to admit, being a huge choc-a-holic I was a bit worried I would over indulge, especially as my children have been completely and utterly spoiled by family and the Easter Bunny!! My house is now filled with enough chocolate to last the year. However, I surprised myself with how controlled I was. I did have chocolate and cakes, but I did not do that thing, you know... have one, then another, then another and so on.

The Easter Bunny hid about 30+ eggs all round the garden! Mmmm look at all that chocolate!!!

I was also pleased with the fact that I went to the gym Friday morning at 6.30am and did a full workout. Then went back on Monday at 10am, if there was ever going to be a time I would lose focus, then Easter weekend would have been it!

As well as my 3 workouts in the gym I have added something a little extra... A My Fitness Pal 30 day squat challenge!

Day 1 - 50 squats Day 2 - 55 squats Day 3- 60 squats Day 4 - Rest Day 5 - 70 squats Day 6 - 75 squats Day 7 - 80 squats Day 8 - Rest Day 9- 100 squats Day 10 - 105 squats

Day 11 - 110 squats Day 12 - Rest Day 13 - 130 squats Day 14 - 135 squats Day 15 - 140 squats Day 16 - Rest Day 17 - 150 squats Day 18 - 155 squats Day 19 - 160 squats Day 20 - Rest

Day 21 - 180 squats Day 22 - 185 squats Day 23 - 190 squats Day 24 - Rest Day 25 - 220 squats Day 26 - 225 squats Day 27 - 230 squats Day 28 - Rest Day 29 - 240 squats Day 30 - 250 squats

So, who fancies joining me?I am on day 3, but it is also my gym night tonight so tomorrow should be interesting!

Just under two weeks until my weight and measurement update... I am not sure how much I will have lost on my waist, but I am hoping to have at LEAST lost 1/2 an inch!